Thursday, May 2, 2013
Never, not once in the five and a half years we were together did I wonder if I would be happier with someone else, or alone. This is kind of a record for me. My previous "happy" record had been about six months. With David, I never looked at anyone else and wondered what it might be like. I never wondered what I was doing here and how the hell might I get out. I didn't have an exit strategy. In retrospect I find that extraordinary. I always have an exit strategy. I suspect this is monumentaly important. Maybe not. But I learned something important. It is possible to be happy with another person. Really happy. That had never really occured to me as an option before. Small gifts, great wonders.