Wednesday, September 25, 2013
I realized recently that it's been a long time since I posted anything. I just haven't felt that I had much to offer to the conversations of the world. My journey feels as if it is becoming more and more personal and I am less inclined to put it out there for others to see. There is also the feeling of an endless spiral of emotions and I simply don't feel it's useful to keep repeating it over and over in public. There are old, ancient even, hurts that have nothing to do with this new grief and yet everything to do with it. Hurts I'm not sure I'm ready to share. Maybe it's simply winter and time to dive deep within instead of outward. In any case, I find myself being more silent in my grief journey as it turns again and again on it's axis. If I'm tired of the pain, certainly ya'll must be as well. I am not gone, simply stepping cautiously right now. I love that you are out there, listening. Dont' give up on me.