For a couple of days now when I get quiet, I feel David's presence and I keep hearing the words, "I gave you roots, the next person will give you wings." And he feels happy and excited, like he knows something I don't know. I want to believe this is true.
Today I kept remembering Thomas Merton's quote, "It's impossbile to tell people that they are walking around shining like the sun." We come from light and to light we return. We live in light too, but we spend our time here on earth trying to remember that.
When I get sad or angry that David is gone and I am left behind, I forget the thing I know is true. What I know is true is that we are all one and we are all of the light. He is not gone, he is not seperate from me. We are a part of each other, always. Not just David and I, all of us, everywhere. We are each other and we are shining like the sun. It's so easy to forget.
And I forget that time is not really a linear thing. There is no begining or ending. Time, light, love are all a sphere that has no middle, so everything is center. (another Carrie Newcomer line)
When I can remember these things and live into them I am okay. Not just okay, I am living in peace. I am happy. The work is in remembering, opening up the space to remember what is true.